By the following morning, Alex awoke to the realization that today was
the fourth day since the ghosts of the Brendons had entered his life,
but already he was becoming accustomed to the new habits they
introduced. He didn’t meander through his morning routine anymore,
careless of the odd minute wasted here and there. He was struck by the
new goal emerging to make it into the police station before Ted and
Marlo appeared—why, if it was so easy for him to do it now, had he never
done it before?
Even Marnie was beginning to resign herself to this new-and-improved Alex Davis.
“Is there something you’re not telling me?” she demanded brusquely.
For
a moment, Alex feared she might suspect something about the ghosts—but
how could she know? “No,” he told her—at least, he was about to, but
Officer Tony Barelli—a loud-mouthed, ambitious senior officer who often
took 18-hour shifts with the hopes of impressing his superiors, and
performed all his duties with finesse that made all his fellow officers
jealous—heard Marnie’s comment and called out, “I know what’s going on!”
Conversation
in the vicinity quickly hushed, even as people continued going through
the motions of whatever they had been doing. Alex felt on edge; what did
Barelli suspect? Surely he would have heard about the events of that
night. What spontaneous, bravado-laden story was Barelli going to spread
about Alex now?
Barelli, for his part, had everyone’s attention and
knew it, but continued as if he, Marnie, and Alex were the only ones in
the conversation. He clapped Alex on the shoulder, “See, Marnie? Alex is
a game-player; he always has been. He thinks three steps ahead of the
competition.”
This was not true, and everyone knew it, especially
Alex; but Barelli was selling, and when Barelli sold, truth was a
guideline, not a foundation.
“Now, I don’t know how he knows it, but
Alex must have heard that he’s got a professional review coming up soon,
where he’ll be considered for a promotion.”
Alex was surprised; he
had no idea about the review, so how could Barelli possibly know? It
felt good to know that he might be promoted, though. He couldn’t wait to
be handed more responsibilities, like following the detectives on
criminal investigations and the like, instead of just being a regular
beat-cop.
“So,” Marnie wondered, “the fact that for three mornings in a row now, Alex shows up on time--is all in preparation for becoming a senior officer?”
Alex
opened his mouth to join the conversation, since they were talking
about him as if he wasn’t there, but Barelli got in before he could say
anything.
“Not Senior officer, Marns,” Barelli shook his head,
“that’s too short for a guy like Alex.” Barelli turned his keen
blue-eyed stare on Alex and murmured conspiratorially, “Word on the beat
is he’s got a straight shot at Lieutenant.”
Alex shook his head; from junior officer to lieutenant? That
was Barelli’s theory? Well, maybe Barelli himself would attempt a feat
like that, but certainly not Alex! The gossip intrigued him, though; was
that really what people thought?
“What makes you so sure I’d get something like that?” Alex asked the officer.
Barelli
winked at him, “Take a look at your case-load, Casanova; there’s no way
the socialites that know your name will let the mayor promote you to
anything less!”
Alex flushed as the cops in the area snickered. Marnie shook her head.
“Davis, you’re patrolling downtown today,” she told him, handing him his schedule. “I know it’s not quite your style, but—“
“It’s
fine,” Alex said quickly, eager for anything that would take him away
from the station full of smirking juniors and frowning seniors. He
grabbed the stack of files and headed to the garage.
Working
quickly and efficiently, Alex hopped into his fully-prepped patrol car
and switched on the scanner as he pulled out of the station.
“Where to, guys?” he asked the Brendons.
Ted eyed him warily, “What do you mean? Aren’t you going to just keep picking the calls?”
Alex
hesitated; he could claim this as an opportunity to get back at them,
an excuse to continue to ignore them. There would be nothing Ted and
Marlo could do if he just chose to act the way he had always been
acting.
Then again, he felt compelled to acknowledge the dramatic
improvement of yesterday afternoon, when he was so jaded by his own
foolish choices that he allowed Ted and Marlo to take over. The number
of cases had exceeded his usual average, but at the same time he had
finished them with more energy than usual. After that afternoon, Alex
realized that he almost didn’t want to return to his old, lazy, flirting
self.
“Nope,” he told Ted with firm resolution, “I think I’ll let
you guys tell me the best ones to pick.” He grinned ruefully, “I guess
I’m not fully recovered from yesterday morning, you could say.”
“Not
to mention the fact that your habit of taking the high-profile cases has
attracted teasing from your fellow cops!” Marlo remarked.
Alex
chuckled, even as his cheeks burned. “Yeah, I, uh, think I want to keep
things on the down-low for now. I’d be okay with quieter stuff, I
think.”
“Why not take a rural patrol loop?” Marlo suggested.
Alex fought back a cringe, “Really? I mean—“
“Unless you think you know what’s best,” Ted interposed.
Alex
caught himself, “No, no, that’s fine!” he responded, shuffling through
the files Marnie had given him to find a quiet loop that needed
patrolling. He found one that circumnavigated several residential areas,
and headed in that direction.
For a “quiet” route, Alex was
surprised to discover just how busy those back roads were. There weren’t
any flashing neon signs or crowds bustling in and out of doors like he
saw so frequently downtown, but he did come across a few motorists in
need. One was a family whose car had run out of gas; Alex willingly let
the dad have the reserve can of gas he always carried in his trunk as a
cop. They thanked him profusely, with far more genuine gratitude than he
had gotten from any lady recently.
Further on, he came across a
senior couple sitting in their car with the windows rolled down, talking
as if this was not something unusual. Alex stopped by and asked how
they were. As it turned out, the car had blown a tire, but neither one
of them had the capacity to be able to change the tire, even though the
car was equipped with all the necessary tools, plus a spare tire. Hence,
they had no choice but to sit and wait for some motorist to stop and
help them, and they did so willingly.
While Alex changed the tire,
the woman informed him, “We’ve been sitting out there for three hours
now, and we’ve seen many cars whiz by us, but none of them stopped until
you came along!”
Alex couldn’t believe it; three hours, and no one
had thought to even ask if the couple needed any help? How many times
had he been one of them—and he was a cop!
“I’m just doing my duty,
ma’am,” he replied, heartened by the fact that this was true; he was
doing his duty, and not just looking for a more efficient way to pick up
dates.
After sending the couple on their way, Alex finished the
loop and began heading back toward the downtown area, when Marlo cried
out, “What’s down there?”
Alex quickly applied the brake and peered
down the side street where she pointed. It was a turnoff into another
neighborhood. Alex could see nothing out of the completely ordinary.
“I don’t see anything,” he told Marlo.
“Well,” Ted suggested, “why don’t you check it out? You can loop back to this road, I made sure.”
Alex
considered that perhaps there was something he was meant to do here,
and the Brendons knew what it was, since they had been through this
neighborhood ahead of him and probably seen something.
“I guess it
couldn’t hurt,” he said, pulling into the neighborhood. He drove down
the street, glancing at everyone he passed. A father walked several
yards behind his toddler daughter pedaling her pink tricycle with
glittery tassels on the handlebars. A young woman in a tracksuit jogged
by him, followed closely by her golden lab. Alex glanced at one yard in
amusement as he saw a housewife in a big, floppy hat directing her three
teenage sons in cleaning the front yard.
“Suckers,” he muttered.
“What was that?” Marlo queried quickly.
“Nothing!” Alex called back just as quick, resolving to avoid talking to himself while on-duty.
Alex
made the second turn and was headed to rejoin the road he had been on
when the flutter of a yellow scarf caught his eye. The scarf was on the
head of a young woman in a familiar (merely because he had seen it so
recently before) forest-green skirt. Alex smirked to himself, noting the
way he considered this girl in terms of “young lady” instead of “chick”
or “hottie.” She was neither of those things!
She was walking on the
sidewalk toward the main road in the same direction as Alex was
driving. He grinned to himself, wondering how freaked-out she might be
if he honked as he passed her. Was she the type to jump in fright, or
would she just look at him funny? In the end, as Alex drove past her, he
decided not to honk. He merely kept going.
“Wait!” Marlo cried.
Alex looked back at her without stopping, “What?”
Marlo was staring out the window with an urgent expression on her face. “Slow down!”
Alex
glanced in his rearview mirror and saw the girl approaching, still with
her head down as if she hadn’t noticed the unusual sight of a police
car in her neighborhood.
“Why should I—“
“Look out!”
This time,
it was Ted, and Alex reacted immediately, slamming on the brakes—just
in time to see a bright-red rubber ball bounce against his front bumper
and into the street, and a young boy run after it.
“Holy heart attack!” Alex sighed warmly. He rolled down the window to yell at the kid, but the boy had his ball and was gone.
“Ah, forget it,” Alex muttered.
“Oh!”
Alex looked up to see the young woman standing right there on the sidewalk; she’d seen him.
“It’s you,” she gasped.
“Yeah,”
Alex felt his ears burn, “Hi.” Alex was used to being at ease with the
ladies, Mister Smooth—what about this girl made him so uncomfortable?
She just stood there, smiling.
“Talk to her!” Marlo piped up brightly.
Alex
fought the urge to glare at the ghost-woman; he had no interest in this
girl, and he could not fathom how or why this girl would ever take an
interest in him.
“Um,” he stammered, “How are you?”
“I’m good,” she answered, still grinning. She gestured to the vicinity. “No thugs here!”
“Oh yeah,” Alex mumbled, “that; well—“
“What’s her name?” Marlo again.
“W-what’s your, uh, your name?”
The girl brushed her hair behind her ear, blushing furiously. Small wonder, having such an awkward conversation with a cop!
“Daphne,” she answered.
“Oh, okay,” Alex could visualize the end of the conversation, and this made it easier. “Well, have a good day, Daphne!”
“And don’t go walking after dark!” Ted added, even though she couldn’t hear him.
Alex laughed as he rolled up the window and pulled away.
“I don’t know what you guys are up to,” he told the couple grinning at him from the back seat, “but that was just awkward!”
Marlo chuckled, “Oh, but you handled it so well!”
“Okay, just don’t make me do that again!”
Ted and Marlo shared a glance, but Alex was not paying attention to them anymore.
“Dispatch, this is 145,” he told the dispatcher, “I’m headed for the I-60 speed trap right now.”
“Patrol 145,” the dispatcher responded, “you are just in time. Go for it; out.”
Alex merged onto I-60 and after a short distance, pulled over to the side of the road. He chuckled to his passengers.
“Did seeing a patrol car ever make you check your speedometer?” he asked.
“Nope,” Ted responded right away, “I always made sure I was matching speed with the flow of traffic.”
Marlo
looked uncomfortable and examined her nails (which could not be
anything other than perfect, since she was dead.) She twisted her
wedding ring on her finger, “Well, I, um—“
“I was just asking,” Alex
saved her from having to respond, “because I think it’s funny how even
though I haven’t even gotten my radar gun out, already traffic is a lot
slower than it was!” He laughed, grabbed the large scanner, and stood
outside his car. He caught a few cars that would speed until they came
within sight of him, at which point they would immediately slow down to a
more reasonable speed. One of these was a powder-blue Mazda Miata. Alex
dove into his car when he saw it coming. He fired up the engine when it
passed, smiling widely as he flicked on his lights to let the driver
know she was being pulled over.
“The car wasn’t going that fast, was
it?” Marlo asked as Alex slowly emerged from his car and loped easily to
the driver’s window. A slender brunette turned her chunky Prada
sunglasses on him.
“Are you serious?” she whined.
“Do you know why I pulled you over, ma’am?” Alex leaned casually on the roof of the compact car.
The
girl took off her sunglasses and began inspecting her manicure. “Let’s
just get this over with, okay? Just tell me what I did wrong, give me
the ticket, and—“
“It’s Addie, isn’t it?” Alex asked her.
Finally, she looked at him, peering closely. Her eyes widened. “Ohmigosh!” she cried in excitement, “It’s you!”
This was the second time he’d heard that today, but somehow it sounded
better when Addie said it. “Adam, isn’t it?” she winked at him.
Alex flushed, “Actually, it’s Alex.”
“Oh…” Addie squinted at him against the glare of the sun through her windshield. “Was I speeding?”
Alex shrugged sheepishly, “No, I, uh, actually just wanted to ask you out on a date.”
“Oh, that’s so cute!” Addie gushed. “Of course I’ll go out with you! What time?”
“Umm, how about eight—“
“Think
very carefully, Alex,” Ted appeared, warning him. “Eight is when you’re
supposed to be clocking out; how can you be picking her up from her
apartment before or at the same time you clock out?”
“—thirty,” Alex finished.
To
Addie’s ears, it was as if he had not hesitated when he said
“eight-thirty.” “Great,” she chirped, “I’ll see you then!” She started
her car up again, but glanced at him slyly, “Can I go now?”
“I’ll let you off with a warning this time,” Alex joked, “I’ll be at your door by eight-thirty, Addie!”
“Bye!” She merged back onto the freeway and sped away.
Five hours later, at 8:05 PM, Alex wearily dragged himself to the scanner to clock out.
He
should have known the Brendons would want to retaliate for the way he
went behind their backs to pursue a relationship with Adelaide. They had
run him almost ragged with calls all the rest of the afternoon; they
almost forced him to accept nearly every call the dispatcher took. She
was shocked, but when she saw that Alex would not refuse, she continued
to give him assignments in addition to the files Marnie had given him
that morning. Ted and Marlo didn’t even seem to mind when Alex was
repeatedly called to break up brawls, chase down shooters, and pick up
perpetrators.
At last, his shift ended, the Brendons wished him a
good night and good luck on his date, and disappeared. Alex vaguely
wondered where they went at night. At any rate, he knew where he was
going! He changed into a fresh shirt and sport coat and caught a cab
over to Adelaide’s address in Pentomino Heights. At precisely 8:30, Alex
knocked on Adelaide’s door.
A butler opened it.
“I’m here to pick up Addie Donahue,” Alex told him.
The butler glanced over him dubiously.
“Miss Adelaide,” he responded with icy condescension, “is expecting you; follow me, please.”
The butler led Alex into the front sitting room of Addie’s house.
“Wait here,” he said, and left the room.
Alex
glanced around as he sat on the plush, suede leather sofa: silk throw
pillows, glass and china sculptures and knickknacks, famous paintings in
gold-plated frames—everything reeked of riches. However did he get so
lucky?
After about ten minutes, Alex began to wonder if he was indeed
so lucky. Why would Adelaide keep him waiting for so long? The house
was strangely silent as the old-fashioned mahogany grandfather clock
ticked away the seconds.
Finally, he heard the familiar clomping of
tall, chunky heels on the stairwell. Addie appeared, wearing her
customary signature clothing: this time a slouchy, brightly-colored
chiffon shirtdress and black, heeled gladiator sandals.
“Arthur!” she gushed when Alex came to stand at the foot of the stairs. “I’m so excited! Where are we going?”
“It’s Alex,” he reminded her for the second time that day, “Come on, let’s go.”
He
held the door for Adelaide, and followed her down the front steps to
the sidewalk. Adelaide stopped and glanced up and down the darkened
street.
“Where’s your car?” she asked, puzzled.
Alex shrugged, a
bit embarrassed, though he had never been before. “I, uh, don’t have a
car, since I spend most of the day in my patrol car. I take a cab.”
Addie’s
mouth smiled, but Alex keenly detected the disgust in her eyes. “Oh,”
she murmured. “Well, then,” she grabbed his arm and led him toward the
parking garage at the end of the block, “why don’t we drive one of
mine?” She stopped by the booth at the gate and said, “Hey, Mack, we’d
like the keys to the Lexus, if you don’t mind.”
“Takin’ another one
out, Miss Addie?” Mack joked, grabbing the keys off the hook. “Careful
with this one, now; not like last time!”
Addie laughed carelessly and tucked the keys to a luxury Lexus into Alex’s hand.
Alex,
meanwhile, began to feel slightly uncomfortable as he wondered what
Mack meant by “another one”: was it another car…or another boyfriend?
“Whatsa matter?” she asked, and Alex realized that he was frowning as he thought.
“Um, Addie,” Alex stammered, “What happened last time?”
Addie rolled her eyes as she waited by the passenger side for Alex to open the door and help her in, “Nothing really happened! Mack was just being silly…you know how those guys are.”
Alex
did know—that when a crime happened in the vicinity of a parking
garage, the man at the gate usually knew the most out of any other
third-party witnesses. Suddenly he was very nervous about being out with
Addie—particularly at the wheel of a car that probably cost more than
his life was worth. Car or boyfriend, Alex didn’t want anything terrible
to happen to either one. However, there wasn’t much he could do about
that; his only option was to focus on enjoying this opportunity—however
long it lasted.
He headed to the eastern side of the city, down
Boylan Avenue, intending to take Addie to the nicest dessert place he
knew of, but as soon as he did, Alex saw her wrinkle her nose.
“What’s wrong?” he asked her.
“Why are we going down here?” she demanded.
“Don’t worry,” Alex sought to reassure her, “I know a nice place down the block here.”
“Oh Alvin, honey,” Addie cajoled him, “you can’t possibly be trying to say that there’s anything
nice on this side of town!” She stuck out her lip in a pout. Her neon
bangles clacked together as she laid her manicured hand on Alex’s leg.
She rubbed his knee tenderly. “Here,” she whispered in his ear, “Let me
take you somewhere fun!” She scanned the block ahead. “Take a right at
the next light.”
Alex ended up following Addie’s directions to
Chez Paris Riche Lounge. Alex had a moment to gawk as Addie touched up
her makeup. He rarely had the opportunity to come out to this block,
even for work. Every business establishment had valets and security
staff standing on the curb.
“There!” Addie’s hand appeared in front
of Alex’s face, and he reflexively veered the car to the curb where she
pointed. The valet approached the car, and Alex rolled down the window.
“Hey Todd!” Addie waved at him.
Todd smiled, “Howdy, Miss Adelaide; welcome back!”
Todd opened the door on her side as Alex got out of the driver’s seat.
“Have a good night, Miss!” Todd waved as Addie latched onto Alex and the two of them walked into the lounge.
The
barrage of recognition did not stop there. The minute Addie entered the
lounge with Alex on her arm, she became Miss Adelaide and guest, the
hostess immediately led her to her favorite table, the bartender came
around to their table and Adelaide smoothly dismissed him almost
immediately by telling him, “We’ll just have the usual.”
Patrons
pointed and whispered, but Alex knew they weren’t even paying attention
to him. For that matter, neither was Adelaide. She talked on and on—more
of a giggling prattle—about so many things, inserting a question every
so often, but largely just focusing on reapplying her makeup (as if it
could have worn off in the short walk between the curb and their table)
and checking to make sure any paparazzi shots would still present her in
the best light.
The waiter brought them both drinks, and Alex
assertively asked for the dessert menu. He couldn’t help noticing that
the waiter glanced at Adelaide before complying; did she treat all her
dates this way?
Whatever the initial hesitation, it had evidently
disappeared when the waiter returned with the warm apple crisp Alex
ordered. He vaguely noticed that there was also another drink on the
tray for Adelaide, but he ignored it and instead offered to share the
crisp with her. She consented and they traded bites for a while, until
the warmth of the food and the fatigue from the day, coupled with the
soft cushions around him—Alex jerked back to semi-wakefulness with the
realization that he’d almost dozed off. He glanced at Adelaide, who was
still babbling away as if he was hanging on her every word. There was
only one glass on the table, and she was busily polishing off another,
but Alex knew when somebody was drunk, and Addie was no exception. The
waiter had probably removed all the other glasses; there was no way to
tell just how drunk the young heiress was.
She was just trying to signal the waiter for a refill when Alex sufficiently recovered his presence of mind to cut her off.
“Juss one m’drink!” she slurred, “Is good stuff!”
Alex shook his head and put his arms around her, “No, I think you’ve had enough.”
“Don’t
matter! I c’n do wha’ I want!” she protested, even as Alex guided her
chair away from the table. She stood and instantly stumbled. He caught
her and began leading her toward the door. Instantly, Todd was at their
side with the Lexus.
“Hey man,” Alex told him, “do you know the parking structure on Adelaide’s block?”
Todd eyed him warily, “Yeah; what about it?”
Alex
dug some cash out of his wallet, “Drive the car back there and leave it
with Mack, would you? I think Miss Adelaide needs to walk some off.”
Todd shook his head; the previous guys never acted like this, but money was money. He pocketed the bills. “Whatever you say.”
“So
warm out tonight!” Addie gurgled rapturously. She leaned on Alex
heavily as he guided her over to her neighborhood. “Fun date! You’re a
mushroom, Albert!”
“Mushroom?” Alex echoed.
“Fungi! Fun guy, get
it?” Addie hooted. Then she moaned, “Ooh, stop—the ride! I wanna get
off!” She reeled and wobbled around in front of Alex.
It took about
an hour, but at last Alex returned Addie to her butler, who latched on
to her quite capably, as if he was used to her coming home like this.
Alex
wearily dragged himself back to the apartment. It was well after ten
o’clock by the time he laid down in bed. He knew he wasn’t usually this
tired by the end of the day. He would have probably not fallen asleep on
his date of all places if Ted and Marlo hadn’t—
Alex popped awake
again; there was some unfinished business he was curious to know about
before he fell asleep. Alex rolled out of bed, grabbed his laptop, and
returned to the covers, propping it open on his lap. Opening the Google
page, he entered Ted and Marlo Brendon. He was amused but not
surprised to find several social networking posts concerning their
unfortunate demise, from various neighbors who described them as “the
nicest couple on the block,” from various local charities and ministries
who claimed that “their presence would be missed.”
“Yeah,” Alex muttered to himself, “try being haunted by them for twelve hours a day!” But he read on.
“Ted
and Marlo were the best things that ever happened to this town!”
someone wrote, “I would not be the sort of person I am today if it
weren’t for them!”
Reading through the anecdotes and memories shared
by many others, it became clear to Alex that the Brendons weren’t just a
couple of people; they had an astounding network of friends from
various walks of life. The computer screen seemed to dim and the text
faded, and before he knew it, Alex was fast asleep.
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Saturday, February 9, 2013
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
The Power of Getting What We See
WYSIWYG; pronounced "wizzy-wig," the acronym stands for "What You See Is What You Get." To relate, it is the tech-world equivalent of the "As-Is" section of a superstore. There are no hidden programs or further assembly required. There is nothing else that comes with the package. What the product or service appears at first glance, from the buyer's perspective, is the total extent of the product or service.
Recently I heard a similar phrase, spoken in regards to the Christian's perspective on life. "You see what you're looking for." Most of us who are familiar with Pollyanna will remember the quote on the locket she wore, which she quoted often. The one from Abraham Lincoln: "If you look for the bad, you will surely find it."
Both these phrases mean the same thing. One is just phrased in a more positive manner. We see what we're looking for in life; and what we see is what we get.
So what are you looking for?
Are you looking for blessing? Are you looking for guidance? Are you looking for God's power in the world?
Or are you looking at the failures of today's culture? Are you looking at the digression of morality in today's society? Do you hunt for apostasy in the church?
We see what we're looking for, and what we see is what we get.
The thing about God's blessing is that, according to Ephesians 1, God has already blessed those who are in Christ. There's nothing that happens in between that; no intervening time between committing to Christ and then attaining God's blessing. "Praise be to the God and Father of Our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in Christ..." There is not so much as a punctuation mark between being "in Christ" and receiving God's blessing! Paul goes on from there to list seven major blessings God has given us, (in one drawn-out sentence), which basically cover every aspect of our lives.
Do we want Him to clean us, forgive us, make us holy and blameless in His sight? Do we want the power and the desire to do His will? Once we are in Christ, God says "Done and done!"
Do we sometimes give in to the feeling of helplessness, when we look at the turning of the world and all we see is despair and destruction? Once we are in Christ, God blesses us by giving us His pleasure, showing us His will, and assuring us of His inimitable sovereignty.
Do we battle feelings of being the "only fish swimming against the current"? The lonely outsider with nowhere to belong? In Christ, God chose us since before the beginning of time, and when we accept His gift of adoption, He welcomes us with open arms!
Do we feel like we're in a war against ourselves, against wrong desires and bad choices? In Christ, God gives us redemption from slavery to sin. In Christ, our identity, our fundamental desire is to do that which is pleasing to God. He changes the things we want to do, to help us be able to glorify Him!
Do we struggle with overwhelming regret? Are there things in the past that come back to haunt us? In Christ, God freely bestows the blessing of forgiveness; He has cleansed us, and when God cleanses, it stays clean!
Ever wonder how far God expects you to go on your own? Ever worry when a decision comes up, whether you'll end up screwing it up and picking the wrong one, and your bad choice then obligates the Almighty of The Universe to come behind you like a maid and clean up the mess you made, shaking His head and wondering how you could have missed the signs He provided? Ephesians 1:8 says He "LAVISHES grace upon us" in Christ. No word is too superfluous to Paul when it comes to recounting the blessings of God.
God doesn't just give us the blessings, in equal measure spooning them out over Christians. He hands us the open bag and says, "Have at it!"
So what have you been looking for all this time? Have you been looking for His blessings? I know I haven't; it's so easy to get mad at my sibling for being jerks, to bemoan my upbringing when I compare it to that of my friends and find that they got more privileges than I did, it's easy to think that there are things in life that I can't do, so I succumb to "paralysis of analysis" because I fear I am not qualified to do things right, to do well enough to be worth the salary.
God looks at the newborn Christian and the seasoned saint together, and He says, "You'll do; here's my Son, I give you Myself, and while we're at it, let Me give you EVERY SPIRITUAL BLESSING."
You see what you're looking for; are you looking for God's blessings? Can you see them in your life? How about the lives of others? Other Christians, other believers--even other churches? There may be many "hamlets", but it's all God's Kingdom, and every single one of God's Kingdom receives these same blessings when they receive Christ. Can you see God's blessing, even in these ones? When a sibling gets on my nerves, when people are being irrational and selfish--can I still look for God's blessing in their lives?
Just imagine what life would be like, what it would look like if we went through it looking for as many of God's blessings as we could possibly find. It's not a word-search or a puzzle. It's "Where's Waldo" when Waldo is the only person in the picture. God has already blessed you and me; we are already lavished with His blessings and His grace. This is the Power of Getting What We See: Once we start looking for the blessings God has given us in Christ, we then see them everywhere, and we are then free to live in these blessings.
Are you looking? What do you see?
Recently I heard a similar phrase, spoken in regards to the Christian's perspective on life. "You see what you're looking for." Most of us who are familiar with Pollyanna will remember the quote on the locket she wore, which she quoted often. The one from Abraham Lincoln: "If you look for the bad, you will surely find it."
Both these phrases mean the same thing. One is just phrased in a more positive manner. We see what we're looking for in life; and what we see is what we get.
So what are you looking for?
Are you looking for blessing? Are you looking for guidance? Are you looking for God's power in the world?
Or are you looking at the failures of today's culture? Are you looking at the digression of morality in today's society? Do you hunt for apostasy in the church?
We see what we're looking for, and what we see is what we get.
The thing about God's blessing is that, according to Ephesians 1, God has already blessed those who are in Christ. There's nothing that happens in between that; no intervening time between committing to Christ and then attaining God's blessing. "Praise be to the God and Father of Our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in Christ..." There is not so much as a punctuation mark between being "in Christ" and receiving God's blessing! Paul goes on from there to list seven major blessings God has given us, (in one drawn-out sentence), which basically cover every aspect of our lives.
Do we want Him to clean us, forgive us, make us holy and blameless in His sight? Do we want the power and the desire to do His will? Once we are in Christ, God says "Done and done!"
Do we sometimes give in to the feeling of helplessness, when we look at the turning of the world and all we see is despair and destruction? Once we are in Christ, God blesses us by giving us His pleasure, showing us His will, and assuring us of His inimitable sovereignty.
Do we battle feelings of being the "only fish swimming against the current"? The lonely outsider with nowhere to belong? In Christ, God chose us since before the beginning of time, and when we accept His gift of adoption, He welcomes us with open arms!
Do we feel like we're in a war against ourselves, against wrong desires and bad choices? In Christ, God gives us redemption from slavery to sin. In Christ, our identity, our fundamental desire is to do that which is pleasing to God. He changes the things we want to do, to help us be able to glorify Him!
Do we struggle with overwhelming regret? Are there things in the past that come back to haunt us? In Christ, God freely bestows the blessing of forgiveness; He has cleansed us, and when God cleanses, it stays clean!
Ever wonder how far God expects you to go on your own? Ever worry when a decision comes up, whether you'll end up screwing it up and picking the wrong one, and your bad choice then obligates the Almighty of The Universe to come behind you like a maid and clean up the mess you made, shaking His head and wondering how you could have missed the signs He provided? Ephesians 1:8 says He "LAVISHES grace upon us" in Christ. No word is too superfluous to Paul when it comes to recounting the blessings of God.
God doesn't just give us the blessings, in equal measure spooning them out over Christians. He hands us the open bag and says, "Have at it!"
So what have you been looking for all this time? Have you been looking for His blessings? I know I haven't; it's so easy to get mad at my sibling for being jerks, to bemoan my upbringing when I compare it to that of my friends and find that they got more privileges than I did, it's easy to think that there are things in life that I can't do, so I succumb to "paralysis of analysis" because I fear I am not qualified to do things right, to do well enough to be worth the salary.
God looks at the newborn Christian and the seasoned saint together, and He says, "You'll do; here's my Son, I give you Myself, and while we're at it, let Me give you EVERY SPIRITUAL BLESSING."
You see what you're looking for; are you looking for God's blessings? Can you see them in your life? How about the lives of others? Other Christians, other believers--even other churches? There may be many "hamlets", but it's all God's Kingdom, and every single one of God's Kingdom receives these same blessings when they receive Christ. Can you see God's blessing, even in these ones? When a sibling gets on my nerves, when people are being irrational and selfish--can I still look for God's blessing in their lives?
Just imagine what life would be like, what it would look like if we went through it looking for as many of God's blessings as we could possibly find. It's not a word-search or a puzzle. It's "Where's Waldo" when Waldo is the only person in the picture. God has already blessed you and me; we are already lavished with His blessings and His grace. This is the Power of Getting What We See: Once we start looking for the blessings God has given us in Christ, we then see them everywhere, and we are then free to live in these blessings.
Are you looking? What do you see?
Saturday, February 2, 2013
Serial Saturday: "Protective Custody," Pt. 3
Alex awoke the next morning just in
time to hear his alarm. 7:30; he had half an hour of privacy before the
Brendons appeared. He showered quickly and dressed immediately before
proceeding with the rest of his morning regimen. Meanwhile, he wondered what
sort of people they had been in life, what sort of work they had been involved
in. Were they the sort of people who kept to themselves, or was some social
outreach program missing its two most important figureheads?
All this consideration disappeared,
however, when Ted and Marlo showed up as Alex was on his way to work,
determined to be late as usual. Then Alex remembered the fight from the
previous night, and the way they had treated him. He refused to acknowledge
them as he stalked into the station (he noted, however, that when he swiped his
keycard, it happened to be right at 8:00:00 again), and moreover, decided that
today he would be more his old self again.
Out on beat, he repeatedly took the
duties involving the hot babes. He answered a call from a bartender downtown
who had cut a female patron off, but too late, and now she was staggering and
weaving her way down the sidewalk. Alex administered a few of the tests, but
the woman—beautiful as she was—reeked of alcohol and could not successfully
complete any of them. He guided her into the back of his police car (taking
private satisfaction that he was placing her next to Ted and Marlo), and
prepared to bring her back to the station. As he merged onto the freeway, he
glanced to his right and saw the two ghosts sitting in the passenger seat,
disgust and horror etched on their faces.
Alex raised an eyebrow
questioningly at them, and Ted replied, “She vomited back there.”
Alex rolled his eyes; now he would
have a mess to clean up before he could leave again.
Later, Alex was waiting at an
intersection when a bright-red Mustang skated right through the intersection on
a red light. Alex would have let someone else, like the patrol car down the
way, take care of it, but he’d glimpsed the wavy red hair in the front seat,
and didn’t see any reason not to take this one, just this once.
Calmly allowing the car to get just
a little ways down the road, Alex took the turn, fell in behind the car, and
turned on his lights, briefly flickering the siren so she would know she was
being pulled over. Alex had to grin at her spunk as the Mustang revved only
briefly before slowly crawling to the shoulder of the highway. He pulled to a
stop a respectful distance behind her, checked his hair, and slowly emerged
from his car, sauntering over to her window like he was boss.
She had not even lowered the tinted
window. Alex rapped on it, “Ma’am?” he called.
Very slowly—as slowly as she could
manage—the redhead brought the window down. She nailed Alex with an icy glare,
but Alex was confident enough in his abilities to not let her antagonism faze
him.
“Do you know why I pulled you over,
ma’am?” he asked politely, with a disarming smile.
She smiled back, but it wasn’t
disarmed, “Because you’re a masochistic—“ she spat an angry epithet.
Alex may have been the sort of guy
to try flirting with every girl he met, but he knew a lost cause when he saw
one. At once, he reverted to being all business. “License and registration,
please,” he instructed.
The redhead rolled her eyes, “Look,
how much will this cost?”
Alex stared at her, perplexed,
“Excuse me?”
The girl sniffed, “Just tell me how
much the ticket would cost, and I’ll pay it right here. I’m late for an
appointment in the city, and I just want to go!” The daggers had softened into
doe-eyes as she turned to him with a pitiful pout.
Alex shook his head, “I’m sorry
ma’am; I only write the tickets, I don’t deal with the payments—“
“I’ll give you double if you let me
off with a warning,” she offered.
Alex was almost scared at the way
she was not complying with his request, and the way she seemed not to care
about committing a federal offense in order to get her way. “Ma’am, I can’t
accept that,” he insisted, “and if you will not provide your license and
registration for me to write the ticket, I’ll have no choice but to arrest
you.”
“All right, fine!” The redhead’s
manner returned to the angry fire, and she quickly pulled out her driver’s
license and slipped the registration information out of her car. “Just hurry it
up, will you?”
“Now that I can do,” Alex said, accepting the card and the document
and returning to his car.
Settling into the driver’s seat, he
looked at the name.
Ted heard him gasp in surprise.
“Don’t tell me you know this one, too?” he asked.
Alex shook his head as he filled
out the ticket, “Nearly everyone in America knows ‘this one,’” he informed the
ghost, “I just wonder how many tickets she’s weaseled her way out of; she
seemed to have her methods well-practiced.”
“Speaking of ‘weaseling out’,”
Marlo piped up, “You’ve missed two calls on larceny, one pursuit, and at least
three motorist-in-distress calls while you’ve been dealing with this one
woman.”
Alex turned to her, “Now see? I
wouldn’t have missed those calls if I had just let someone else take care of
her!”
“Yeah,” Ted countered, “but you
only went after her because she was cute, didn’t you?”
Alex felt his ears burned and he
climbed out of the car and returned to the Mustang. The girl had her engine
running again.
“Here you are, ma’am,” he said,
returning her license and registration, and handing her the ticket, “Have a—“
“Yeah, yeah,” She immediately
shifted into gear and pulled away before he could finish.
Alex had to chuckle to himself as
he climbed back into his patrol car, “I could get her on speeding, probably, if
I wanted to.”
“You’ve got a call to answer,
bucko,” Marlo reminded him.
“Patrol unit found a bunch of guys
in—“
“Shh!” Alex interrupted Ted, “I’m
listening to the dispatcher right now.”
He turned up the dial, and drove
down the highway back into town, but in reality, Alex wasn’t listening to the
dispatcher. He wanted to get back to the station and fill out the forms for the
ticket he’d just written. That should kill another hour or so of his shift.
As he exited the freeway, his radio
clicked.
“Hey, Davis?” it was Detective
Gunderson, a capable, driven man from Alex’s station.
“Davis here,” Alex replied, knowing
that if Detective Gunderson was calling him, he shouldn’t mess around.
“Could you come down to 1608 Mallard
Court? Do you have any passengers?”
Alex saw the look that Ted and
Marlo exchanged as they remembered the last passenger Alex had taken. “Nope,”
he told the detective.
“Great; I need an extra car. We
just broke up a party here, and dispatch said you were the closest.”
“I’ll be right over, sir,” Alex
promised. A party on Mallard Court was still close enough to the city to be on
the more-upscale side.
When Alex arrived at the house, he
saw that the “party” must have begun sometime late the night before. He counted
two ambulances pulling away, and Detective Gunderson and another lieutenant had
their patrol cars full of hungover and stoned partiers. Gunderson brought three
scruffy men—two black and one white—over to Alex’s patrol car as he pulled up.
“Here, take these back to the
station, will you? Let Marnie know that these two are under possession with
intent,” he pointed to the black one on the end and the white man, “and this
one is under arrest for possession.”
“I can do that, sir,” Alex
responded. As the lieutenant herded the three perpetrators into the back seat,
Ted and Marlo transferred to the passenger seat.
“All set?” Alex joked as the
lieutenant closed the door.
The guys grumbled and cussed at
him.
Alex weaved around the blocks,
working his way toward the police station. Halfway between Mallard Court and
the police station, Alex happened upon the sight of a fellow “blue-shirt”
(junior officer) standing by the side of the road. He looked as if he had been
walking for some distance. Alex almost continued by him, but the young man
chased after the car so ardently that Alex felt compelled to stop the car and
pull over.
“Thanks, buddy,” the officer cried,
pulling open the door and climbing in so quickly, it was all Ted and Marlo
could do to scoot over and let him in; and where else did they have to go but
on either side of Alex in the driver’s seat? They sandwiched Alex between them;
his elbows were pinned against his sides, and he had their faces resting on
either shoulder. All three of them were exceedingly uncomfortable, but the
officer continued chatting, wholly unaware of the predicament he was causing.
“My tire blasted apart on Maple
Drive,” he explained, “and wouldn’t you know it, today happened to be the day
that I didn’t have the jack in the car to
change it! I really appreciate you picking me up like this; do you need to be
somewhere after you drop the—“ he gestured with this thumb toward the back
seat, “—load off at the station?”
“No,” Alex answered around Marlo’s
shoulder under his chin, “I have reports to fill.”
“Okay, I’ll ride back with someone
else; geez,” the officer reached past Marlo and gave Alex a nudge, “why so
tense? Loosen up a little, man! You’re stiff as a board!”
Yeah, because I’m crammed
between two people you can’t possibly know about! Alex thought to himself.
When they finally pulled into the
station, Ted immediately opened the door to let himself out—but the door was
still closed when Alex went for it. He bumped his forehead on the unexpected
window. The officer laughed, and Alex glared at Ted as he emerged from the car
and opened the door for the three perpetrators in the back.
After booking the three men with
Marnie, Alex drifted back to his desk and grabbed the ticket report to fill it
out. It was only three o’clock in the afternoon, but Alex felt like he already
spent his entire twelve hours in that car.
Oh well, he thought to himself, I just won’t take
very many calls this afternoon; it will give me a break. He smiled as he recalled the more pleasant beats
he’d had in the past, and the Ted Brendon noticed it.
“You’re not still thinking about
picking up girls, are you?” he asked, somewhat gruffly.
“And what if I am?” Alex retorted.
“What did you say?” Chris had just
been walking past his desk. Alex flushed as he realized he’d responded to Ted
aloud in a public place. “Nothing,” he told Chris. The junior officer shook his
head.
“Look,” he continued to the ghost
in a quieter tone, “I was actually just thinking about what happened this
morning,” he admitted, “and I just thought you should know that I am so tired
right now that I really don’t care about picking my own beat for the rest of
the day. You and Marlo can have at it.”
“Really?” Ted asked skeptically,
“You’re not just saying that to get us out of your hair for now, but in reality
once we’re back on the road you’re going to ignore us again?”
“No,” Alex murmured with a shake of
his head, “I really mean it this time.”
Ted stared Alex right in the eye,
and the young man briefly wondered if ghosts could read minds, because it seemed
like Ted was reading his just then. Finally, Ted answered, “All right,” and
left it at that.
Five hours later, Alex clocked out
feeling almost rejuvenated. Following Ted and Marlo’s direction hadn’t been as
taxing as he thought it would be. It was as if they acknowledged the fact that
he was too tired to fight by giving him simple, gratifying calls to answer and
patrols to run. At six o’clock, Adelaide had called him, and of course he had
taken that call even though he was on duty, but beyond that, the day had gone
by rather smoothly. Alex logged out for the day and stepped out onto the
sidewalk. Sighing, he began making his way toward his apartment.
Two blocks down from the station,
he noticed a particular group of night walkers who seemed suspicious: a young
woman walked alone, and following her at a distance of about ten yards were
three guys. At first, Alex dismissed it as a coincidence; it was just four
people walking in the same direction. After seeing the three hoods change sides
of the street right behind the girl, and adding to that the fact that they
never seemed to get any nearer to her, Alex began to get suspicious. He
continued to watch until he saw one of the would-be thugs break away from his
buddies. From his vantage point across the street, he saw the remaining two
gradually speeding up their walk to catch up to the girl, while he clearly saw
the third emerge in an alleyway ahead of the girl. They were going to block her
in, force her into the alley.
Just before the three hoods could
act, though, Alex hollered, “Hey!”
The girl finally stopped and looked
around herself. One of the guys decided to try and go for her anyway, but she
screamed and Alex ran across the street, “Get away from her!” he yelled.
The one in the alley recognized
Alex’s uniform and told his cronies, “It’s a cop!”
By the time Alex reached the girl’s
side, the guys had disappeared into the shadows of the night.
The girl smiled at Alex with
gratefulness in her shining brown eyes. Alex almost didn’t think twice about
her; she looked like she’d fit in with the Powerball crowd; he’d saved her from
the goons because he didn’t like them, not because he cared about her.
“Are you okay?” he asked, merely
because she was staring at him like she wanted him to say something.
“Yeah,” she sighed, gazing over her
forest-green skirt and adjusting her brown cardigan. “Thanks,” she told him,
looking up shyly.
Alex didn’t look at her twice. “No
problem,” he dismissed her gratitude automatically. “Have a good night.”
Alex walked back to his apartment,
satisfied with the events of the day—with the exception of the morning’s
fiascos.
“Almost everything,” he muttered as
he fell into bed and a dreamless sleep.
Saturday, January 26, 2013
Serial Saturday: "Protective Custody", Pt. 2
Nighttime,
in his bed, was no better. It seemed as though, goaded with the knowledge that
Ted and Marlo could see his entire past, every little thing he did, even the
secret things, his mind was intent on digging up every single occurrence of
even the smallest amount of embarrassment Alex had ever experienced,
broadcasting them in full view of Marlo’s big green eyes. Alex almost didn’t
hear his alarm over the sound of Marlo’s inane giggling in his dreams…
His
alarm!
Alex
jerked upright before he was fully awake. His body was at an odd angle,
mid-toss, so he promptly fell out of bed in a tangle of sheets. Sometime during
the night, he’d ripped his t-shirt off. His body was drenched in sweat. It
would be a cold shower this morning, for sure! He checked his clock: 7:52. His
alarm was long since over, and there was no way he could even hope to get to
work on time. Alex yanked the sheet of and tripped and stumbled his way into
the bathroom.
The
shower felt good; he was more awake when he stepped out and wrapped himself in
a towel. He grabbed his toothbrush and wiped the condensation from the mirror
to begin brushing his teeth.
“Mornin’,
sunshine!”
“GAAAHHH—“ Alex’s shrill scream at seeing Marlo’s face staring
back at him from the mirror was cut short by his left knee connecting with the
bowl of the sink at the same time he involuntarily jabbed the back of his
throat with his toothbrush. He collapsed on the floor in a towel-swathed heap
between the sink and the toilet.
“It’s
not like we didn’t tell you we’d show up at eight,” Ted shrugged as he casually
stepped—fully clothed and completely dry—out of Alex’s shower.
Alex
flinched again, this time narrowly missing smacking his face against the toilet
base.
“Ge-get
out!” he gasped, waving his arm weakly.
Ted immediately disappeared. By the time Alex struggled to his feet, Marlo was
gone, too. Warily, he peeked out of the bathroom door to check if they were in
the bedroom. The coast seemed clear. He heard dishes clanking in the kitchen.
So that’s where they were. Alex
basked in the privacy of his room, noting that it was now 8:00, and since he
hadn’t even left his apartment yet, he was now officially late for work. Who
cared? Would anybody listen if he tried to blame it on a couple ghosts freaking
the living daylights out of him?
A
far-more-composed Alex Davis met his two “ghost-parents” in the kitchen minutes
later.
“Don’t
ever show up in my bathroom again!” he
growled savagely as he ate the breakfast Marlo set on the table.
Marlo
scoffed, “Do you think I wanted to land
in your bathroom mirror and see you like that?” she demanded. “You best be glad
that—“
“Marlo!”
Ted reached across the table and silenced his wife with a gentle squeeze of her
hand. He looked at Alex, “We’ll do our best, but honestly, Alex, we don’t
control where we show up; you do. Our first appearance will always be near you,
so if you don’t want another situation like this morning—“
“Make
sure you’re dressed and decent by eight o’clock!” Marlo finished.
“Yeah,
speaking of eight o’clock,” Alex glanced at the clock hanging next to the
microwave in the kitchen, “I—“ he froze. The hands clearly pointed to 7:45. Why
had the clock in his bedroom said 8:00, then?
Marlo
grinned at him and clasped her hands under her chin. “You’re what?” she
prompted him significantly.
Alex
peered suspiciously at the pair. “Or maybe you two…”
“We’re
outside the realms of time and space, Alex,” Marlo reminded him with chilling
calm, “With us, you’re outside the realm
of time and space.”
Alex
stared at her, blinking hard, trying to make sense of the situation. “You’re
making it whatever time you want it to be?”
“Not
quite,” Ted shook his head. “We’re not going to make it that arbitrary. We both
agreed that at any time you needed it—such as this morning—we would make it
whatever time you needed it to be. Right
now, you need it to be 7:45.”
Alex
shook his head in disbelief, “Won’t that mess with the whole world, man?”
“Right
now, our priority is you, Alex Davis,” Ted replied. “Now it’s 7:50. I suggest
you start walking if you want to get to work on time.”
“I’ve
never been on—“ Alex stopped protesting as the two ghosts lifted him out of his
chair and compelled him to walk toward the door. They didn’t set him down until
he was just outside the door of the station.
“Let’s
do it!” Marlo cheered as Alex walked inside.
Marnie
scanned the names as they showed up on her computer screen whenever the
officers clocked in; she murmured a greeting as the names showed up.
“Hi,
Brian… Morning, Sylvia…Hi, Darren…Hi Al—“ she stopped, actually taking her eyes
off the screen for once. “Alex Davis?” she
gasped.
Alex
froze guiltily, keycard in hand. “H-hi, um…Marnie,” he stammered.
She
stared back at her screen. “I think this is the first time all year you’ve clocked in—“ she turned her monitor so Alex
could see, “—right on time!”
Alex
looked at the time next to his key-code: 8:00:00:00. He glanced at where Ted
and Marlo waited for him inside the station. They flashed him a thumbs-up.
“Well,
um,” he responded weakly, “W-would—would ya look at that!” he dashed through
the doorway before Marnie could utter another syllable.
Alex
checked the schedule on the wall; he wasn’t on beat till 9:30. That gave him
plenty of time to look over and fill out the modest stack of paperwork on his
desk. He sat down and commenced working.
“Davis!”
Captain Prosser’s gravelly voice boomed out across the office. Alex snapped
involuntarily to attention, sending his chair skidding out from under him.
“Sir!”
“Good
to see you on time… for once!” Prosser
raised his mug of coffee in salute and returned to his office.
Alex’s
knees buckled as he prepared to sink into his chair, but Marlo caught his
elbow. “Whoa, easy there!” She held him up till Ted brought the chair back over
for him.
Alex
grabbed the chair as soon as it was close, and sat down, collecting his wits
for a moment.
“Are
you okay?” Marlo asked him.
Alex
wagged his head, “I’ve just—I’m not used to being called out for a compliment
by my captain like that.”
“How
did it feel?” Ted asked with a chuckle.
Alex
didn’t answer. He only shook his head and grabbed a pen.
Not long after he began forging
through the small pile (one benefit of choosing only few cases, and only the
ones he would enjoy? Less paperwork, and what he had brought up pleasurable
memories), Marlo sidled up next to him.
"Whatcha doing?" she
asked.
Alex was self-aware enough to know
that at any time, there was a good chance there was at least one pair of eyes
on him at every moment. He kept his voice low as he muttered, "Filling out
paperwork."
"What kind of paperwork?"
Marlo shuffled through the stack of papers, but when Alex went to re-straighten
it, he found them exactly how he left them.
"Reports from the week's
beats," he answered.
Marlo began searching through the
drawers of his desk. "What's in here—"
"Would you stop that?"
Alex hissed. "Do you even have any idea what that looks like?"
Marlo winked at him, "Hello,
outside space and time, here!" she returned to her nosing, "Nobody
can see anything. Ooh, what's this?" she pulled out a small envelope from
the back of the drawer.
Alex glanced at her in alarm,
knowing that things would only become obvious if he actually interacted with
her. "Would you put that away!" he begged.
Marlo frowned at him just like his
mom used to do. "Young man—" she began.
"Look, I'll explain that when
we're alone, out on patrol," Alex proposed. "Now will you please just
let me finish my reports?"
Marlo nodded and joined Ted in
wandering around the station, peeking over shoulders and peering into cabinets,
and passing comments about the other cops, all within earshot of Alex.
Suddenly, Alex heard Marlo cry out,
"Ted! It's our file!"
Alex glanced up as husband and wife
surveyed the report from the night that ended their mortal lives.
"Who was the officer in
charge?" he wondered under his breath.
"Lieutenant Morgan Haversham,
it says."
Alex flinched and bit back a cry as
Marlo appeared next to him with a file in her hands. Alex glanced into the file
and saw that as far as the robbery goes, a few items were listed, then a
reference to an insurance list. Alex wondered what was on that list.
He returned to finishing the forms,
ending with the report on following Miss Adelaide.
"Who is she?" Ted
appeared beside him, and Alex was suddenly aware that his expression when he
thought about Adelaide gave him away.
"Um, well," Alex flushed
with shame, "she's just someone who...crossed my path on a beat a few days
ago."
"Do you like her?" Ted
asked.
Alex shrugged, "Well, I don't
know, we haven't really had the chance to talk yet."
"But you want to get to know
her?"
"Well," Alex snorted,
"yeah!"
Ted laughed, "Good luck with
that one!" he cried.
Alex eyed him warily, "You
wouldn't—I mean, you guys wouldn't, you know, mind if I stopped to talk with
her, would you?"
Ted shrugged, "In the
off-chance you had a small opportunity and she was there and not doing
anything?"
Alex nodded, "Yeah."
"No, Marlo and I would not
interrupt. Just as long as no calls come in while you're—chatting."
Alex bobbed his head, setting aside
the last case file and turning away from his desk. He gave the Brendons a look
that asked, "Are you ready to go?"
They nodded, and Alex stood just as
Captain Prosser emerged.
"Davis!" he barked.
Alex immediately approached his
captain, ready to head past the office and out to the garage. "Yes
sir?"
Prosser looked toward the front of
the room and beckoned a young cadet with bright-red hair and an easy smile.
"This is Jones," Prosser
said, "He asked to shadow you today."
"Shadow... me?" Alex echoed, wondering how he was going to
have a chance to talk with the Brendons if he had another person in the car.
Prosser glared at Alex, mistaking
his tone for reluctance. "Yes; you'll take him out on your beat today.
He'll ride in the front seat...unless you decide to stick him in the
back." Captain Prosser said this last with such dangerous certainty that
Jones flinched in horror, but Alex had been around long enough to know not to
take the Captain seriously when he said things like that. He clapped Jones
reassuringly on the shoulder.
"Nah, I don't think I'll need
to do that! Let's go, Jones."
Jones bobbed his head and tried to
smile again.
Alex felt a little proud of his
capabilities as he took Jones over the procedures and "bells and
whistles" of his patrol car. Jones seemed to know quite a bit already, but
even with only seven years under his belt, Alex knew that mere knowledge did
not separate the "men from the boys," as it were. Jones seemed to
know a lot about Alex himself, as well.
"I'm really honored that
you're letting me do this," the young cadet gushed as they pulled out of
the station. "Captain Prosser said if I wanted to run with the big dogs
I'd have to get by you first. And another cop I talked to, Officer Van Derby,
said he considers you the most streetwise cop of all the juniors." Jones
hesitated before remarking, "He did say you don't generally take your
calls by-the-book, and that you tend to meet a lot of girls on your beat."
The young boy grinned and asked slyly, "So...are we going to meet some
girls today?"
Alex glowed at the praise from his
superiors, and he was about to answer in the affirmative, when he saw Ted and
Marlo frowning at him from the back seat, and Ted shook his head.
"We'll see," he conceded,
not quite willing to give up the idea but at the same time scared of what the
ghosts might do if he ticked them off. He already discovered their uncanny
ability to manipulate time; who knew if they would choose to force him to live
this one day over and over again, like so many movies he'd seen?
"Say, Jones," Alex
decided now would be a good time to change the subject, "do you have a first
name?"
Jones shook his head, “Yeah—it’s
Leroy.”
“Leroy Jones?” Alex tried the name and found it cumbersome.
“Really?”
Jones’ red eyebrows danced, “I
know, I don’t like it much, either. Most people call me Tom.”
Alex tried that one, “Tom Jo—“ he
stopped and flushed when he realized the joke.
From the back seat, Marlo giggled,
“Tom Jones? Heehee! I like this kid!”
she squealed.
Alex shook his head, “Well, okay,
Tom; let’s see what we have on the scanner.” He turned the knob, and the
dispatcher’s voice came through as monotonous as ever.
“Geez,” Tom remarked, “you have to
listen to that all day? No wonder you’re
always trying to find somewhere to hook up! Any chick would be more exciting
than her!”
“Hey, man,” Alex spoke up
defensively, “this is where I find the
chicks!” The words were out of his mouth before he could stop them. He glanced
back at the furious ghosts guiltily, and added, “…but hooking up is not why
we’re out here,” he saw Ted nod approvingly, but at Tom’s combination of
confusion and disappointment on his face, he finished, “—it’s a side benefit!”
“Ahem!” Marlo cleared her throat noisily, knowing that Alex
would be the only one to hear her. She wagged a warning finger at him, and he
tried to shrug at her without Tom noticing.
Tom sighed, “Okay, Mr. Cop-Man,” he
teased, “where do we go first?”
Alex paused to listen to the
dispatcher.
“Available units respond to a car
theft at Marley Avenue…Available units respond to medical emergency at
Northwood Drive…”
“Ooh!” Marlo spoke up, “there’s a
good one!”
“Northwood Drive?” Alex replied
aloud, “That’s—“
“—A residential area, isn’t it?”
Tom finished curiously. “I thought you normally do the high-profile stuff.”
Alex saw that this was the call Ted
and Marlo wanted him to take, so he didn’t have a choice. He tried to excuse
himself, “Yeah, but Northwood’s only a short ways down from us, and I like to
keep my beats close…”
“Whatever, dude,” Tom sighed, “I’m
just riding in the car.”
Alex reached for his mic. “I’ll
show you how to respond to the dispatcher,” he told Tom, clinching the “call”
button and replying, “Dispatch, this is 145, I’ll take Northwood.”
“Fourteen-five?” The dispatcher
sounded as incredulous as Tom had been. “Are you sure you want to? I think it’s
just an accident, a young kid, and the EMTs are already on their way. I could
get someone else—“
“I’ll get there before they do,
Dispatch,” Alex responded, flicking on his lights and steering down the road
that would take him out to Northwood Drive.
Alex arrived at the small
residential house in time to console the frightened siblings of the young girl,
who had tripped and broken her ankle, but none of the kids were old enough to
drive, and the parents weren’t answering their cell phones. Alex gave the
obligatory congratulations for proper use of 9-1-1, and stayed with them till
the ambulance arrived to take the girl (and her siblings) to the hospital.
When he returned to the car, Tom
was listening to the scanner again. “I think I found something for us to do at
the Mountainside Golf Resort!” he crowed.
“I have a better idea,” Ted
offered, “Try going down Martindale Avenue, and take a right at the donut
shop.”
“What’s there?” Alex asked before
he remembered that technically he was talking to two people.
Ted answered first, “Marlo’s over
there now; there’s a—“
“I think it sounds like a security
issue or something,” Tom answered while Ted was still speaking.
Alex huffed in annoyance; as much
as he wanted to look like he was listening to Tom, he figured he would get into
trouble if he didn’t at least head over to where Marlo was waiting, even though
it would be no trouble for her to just “jump” back into the car.
“Umm—“
“All units please respond to a car
theft on Martindale Avenue! Suspect heading east!”
Alex sighed with relief and gunned
the engine. “That’s us!” he told Tom. He roared off in the direction of
Martindale Avenue.
“Awesome!” Tom cried, “A chase!”
“Unit 145, is that you?” Alex heard
the transmission from another patrol unit at the end of the road.
“Roger, this is Unit 145,” Alex
replied.
“All right, son; stay put in case
he decides to bolt in your direction. If you see him, follow but do not engage,
I repeat, follow but do not engage!”
“Copy that, sir,” Alex replied,
wincing.
Tom scowled, “Aww, nuts!” he
grumbled. “So now what do we do?”
Alex heard the back door open and
he glanced back; Marlo climbed into the car and closed the door behind her—but
at the same time the door had never opened. She saw him watching her and
winked.
Alex shook his head, “Now, we wait
for further orders.”
Five minutes later, the call came
in: “All secondary units, suspect has been apprehended; thanks for your help!”
“That’s just wrong!” Tom snapped.
“Hey!” Alex tried to calm the young
cadet, “It happens from time to time; it’s okay. Let’s see what else is on the
scanner.” He turned the dial and the dispatcher’s voice came through the
speakers.
“…lar emergency on the shoulder of
Interstate 60, repeat, there appears to be a stalled vehicle on the shoulder of
Interstate 60, would the nearest patrol please respond?”
“Alex?” Ted asked, “Interstate 60’s
just down the way, isn’t it?”
Alex rolled his eyes and continued
listening. “All nearby units, I have possible shots fired in an alley on
Courthouse Way; repeat, shots fired, who’s listening to me?”
Alex lifted the mic to respond, and
Tom encouraged him, “Yeah! Armed suspect! Let’s do it!”
Alex hesitated. Courthouse Way was
across town; as much as he would rather chase down the shooter, Interstate 60
was closer. Before he could speak—
“Dispatch, this is Unit 561, I’m on
I-60 en route to motorist.”
“Dispatch, Patrol Car 148, I have
visual on the shooter.”
“Thanks boys…Unit 145, do you
copy?”
Alex winced; he’d missed both
calls, so what could she want now? “This is 145, I copy!”
“I have an officer requesting
backup in front of the Justice Building on Main Street. Would you mind lending
a hand?”
“Wilco, Dispatch; en route now.”
“Backup?” Tom asked as they drove
away, “What does that mean? What will we do?”
“Sometimes they tell you ahead of
time,” Alex admitted, “but if they don’t tell the dispatcher, there’s no way to
know till we get there.”
He navigated the city blocks till
he arrived at the imposing grey building on Main Street. He saw three other
cars parked next to the curb across the street from the front steps. It seemed
that numerous black sedans with tinted windows were always in front of that
courthouse. Alex pulled up behind one of the patrol cars and radioed the
driver.
“Unit 618, this is Unit 145,” he
identified himself and the number on the car in front of him, “Dispatch says
you requested backup?”
“Weeelll, Officer Davis!”
Lieutenant Bree’s familiar icy voice slithered over the radio. “I was afraid
you’d turn me down again, so I told Dispatch to keep it anonymous and spare you
the details. I’ll be out to tell you myself in a second.”
Alex hung up his radio and groaned.
Why did it have to be the lieutenant?
Bree was at his window in ten
minutes. She held a paper bag in her hand.
“Lunch?” she offered when Alex
rolled down the window. Alex accepted the bag.
“What’s all the commotion?” he
queried sarcastically, gesturing toward the empty street.
“Millionaire with a grievance,”
Bree informed him, “Just wanted local eyes for the to-and-fro, he’s got his own
set of bodyguards that went in with him.”
“How long is this going to take?”
Alex asked as Tom started pulling the burgers out of the bag.
Bree shrugged, evidently enjoying
the fact that Alex was committed to the thing he hated least: sitting and
waiting. “It’s the Justice Department, it could take hours.” She elongated the word just to watch him squirm. Her
icy blue eyes darted over to the redhead in the passenger seat. “You gonna
introduce me, or do I have to ask him myself?”
“Lieutenant, this is Cadet Leroy
Jones; he’s accompanying me on beat today.” Alex turned to Tom, “Jones, this is
Lieutenant Bree Munroe—running point on this operation.”
“Ha! You know it!” Bree crowed. “So, Al’s supposed to be showin’
you the ropes, huh, kid?” she winked at Tom. “Has he taken you out to his old stalking
grounds yet?”
“All right,” Alex began to roll up
his window, “Thanks for the lunch, Lieutenant. Radio if you need us to do
anything else.”
Bree shook her head and strode away
from the car.
“What did she mean, stalking?” Tom
asked, glancing nervously at Alex, “You’re not a stalker, are you?”
“No,” Marlo muttered to herself and
to Alex, “he just loves watching pretty girls!”
“She’s just teasing,” Alex
reassured Tom. “She’s one of the ones who doesn’t think the way I pick calls is
very cool.”
“I don’t know why,” Tom scoffed, “I
certainly haven’t seen you do anything that looks anywhere close to stalking,
and I haven’t seen any of these girls the other officers talk about—“
“Bogey on your four,” Alex
murmured, nodding out Tom’s window. Tom discreetly checked that direction. A
girl wearing chunky Prada sunglasses, a tea-length summer dress, and carrying a
Gucci purse strode up the sidewalk.
“Oh yes,” Tom gasped, and Alex admired the way her brown
hair curled around her face.
As the girl crossed over to
approach on Alex’s side of the car, he saw her heel slip a bit—and in that
slight, tipsy movement, realization hit him like a thunderclap: it was
Adelaide! Here was the chance he’d been waiting for! She was nearing his window
now. Alex rolled it down.
“Careful, ma’am,” he called to her,
“wouldn’t want a pretty thing like you to be a danger to yourself!”
Adelaide Donahue stopped and
turned, “Do I know you?” she demanded, walking over to his car.
“Maybe you don’t remember,” Alex
suggested smoothly, “you were pretty full-up the night we first met.”
“Wait a minute!” Marlo burst out,
“That’s the chick he followed the night we—“ she was too overcome to finish her
sentence.
Adelaide, meanwhile, smiled as she
remembered, “Hey! You’re the cop who followed me home after Sandie’s party!”
“That’s right, ma’am,” Alex answered,
“I did; you don’t mean to say you remember that night?”
Adelaide blushed, a slight
reddening in her tanned cheeks, “Well, no, that night’s pretty much a blur, but
I heard from the neighbors what y’all did for me,” she leaned closer to Alex,
“And I think it’s really sweet,” her voice dropped as she leaned in so close
Alex could almost taste her breath, “…and I was just hoping for the chance to
thank you…”
“Um, hello?” Tom was getting uncomfortable at being forced to
witness the scene.
Alex fumbled for the handle of his
door, wanting to continue this tryst outside the car so the cadet would not
feel so uncomfortable, but Marlo screamed out, “Don’t you dare touch that
handle, young man!”
Her voice was so shrill, Alex
jumped and banged his head on the rim of the window. “Ouch!” he cried.
Adelaide pulled back, visibly
disappointed. “Well, I have to go,” she said, still leaning her elbows on
Alex’s door. “Do you have a name, Officer?” She winked.
“Alex, Miss—Alex Davis.”
The petite heiress winked, “Call me
Addie, Alex.”
“All right—“
“No, seriously,” she reached into
her purse and pulled out a small piece of paper. Addie dropped it through the
window and into his lap, “Call me.”
She sauntered easily away.
Silence reigned in the car for ten
seconds, and then Tom could not resist a long chuckle.
“Oh-ho-ho-ho!” he laughed, with an
astounded grin on his face. “Is that how
you do it, man?”
Alex ignored the frowns of the
couple in the back seat and basked in the admiration of the rookie sitting next
to him. “That’s sorta how I do it,” he answered, “yeah.”
“Dude!” Tom cried, “I feel like I
should be taking notes or something!”
Once they received the “okay” to
leave the Courthouse steps, Alex immediately requested permission to drive
around the higher-end side of town, just to avoid being close to the sort of
“small” jobs he’d spent all morning taking. It was easier, too, to avoid
looking in that rearview mirror and seeing the disapproval of the Brendons,
because the more they drove around the beachfront highways and the large outlet
malls and the gated neighborhoods, the more Tom gushed about “chicks” and
“lookers.” In particular, he would compare every girl he saw to Adelaide.
“Aw, look!” he cried out to Alex,
whose eyes followed a pair of easy, slender young blondes with bleach-white
smiles and flawless skin. One of them was walking a pint-sized terrier. “That
one is wearing the same dress Adelaide had on!”
Alex glanced over to where Tom
pointed, “Yeah, but it looks different on her, doesn’t it?” he remarked to the
young cadet.
“True that!” Tom agreed.
Alex spent the rest of the day
being choosy and basking in the raving adulation from the passenger seat. Tom
was in high spirits by the time they pulled back into the garage at the
station.
“Man! That was the most awesome
beat I think a cop could ever have!” He told Alex as the young officer filled
out the driving log for that day. “Thanks, Officer Davis; when I get to be a
cop, I can’t wait to get a beat just like yours!”
Alex shook his head, “You’ve gotta
put in the work first, man!” he reminded Tom loftily.
“Oh, right,” the redheaded cadet
conceded, “Play comes later, right?”
Alex laughed, and Tom returned to
the station.
“When you mentioned that you saw
her the other day,” Ted remarked, “I
should have known you meant that night.”
Alex turned to face the ghosts,
“Why so worried?” he demanded hotly.
“Alex,” Marlo gazed at him with
pity, “Obviously she’s an alcoholic, she’s spoiled-rotten, she thinks you’re a
tool, and she—“
“Hey!” Alex snapped, “You know
what? You guys have lived your lives already; I would appreciate it if you would let me at least live my personal
life how I want, if you’re gonna claim
custody of my professional life!”
“Alex,” Ted cautioned him, “Don’t
you see that the choices you’re making in your personal life are affecting your
professional life, too? You think you can just float through relationships and
be choosy—and you’re trying to be choosy about your job, too?”
“Yeah, I am!” Alex retorted. “Maybe
you never had the chance to get it, but that philosophy just happens to work
for me, so I don’t intend to give it up any time soon, thank you very much!” He
crossed his arms. “Now if you’ll excuse me, I believe I’m off–duty now, so I’ll be seeing you!” He stormed out of the
garage.
“Yeah, you bet you will!” Marlo hollered after him.
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Communion: A Commitment To Unity
*This is an essay I wrote last fall. I don't pretend to be any sort of scholar or authority at all on Biblical matters; this was not a result of any length of arduous study. It is merely a frank understanding of some passages that I have read dozens of times without really understanding, and a straightforward look at a concept I had for so long taken for granted.
Imagine a friend asked you to come along to a memorial
service for a relative of hers. You would go, right? Of course; you desire to
support her in her time of grief.
So
you go, and once there, you discover that this particular relative has actually
been dead and buried for some time. The “memorial service” turns out to be a
detailed, ritualistic reenactment of the last twenty-four hours of the
relative’s life, complete with the last meal she ate, the death, and the burial.
Your friend’s grandfather stands and recites the last words of the deceased.
Would
that not be bizarre? Let us imagine a second scene.
This
time, it’s your own grandmother who has died. This venerated matriarch was
regarded in your family as the anchor, the one who taught all your relatives
everything they knew about life. At the funeral service, you all gather around
her coffin and confess every wrong you’ve ever done her. Once confessional is
over, the service ends and everyone goes about their business.
Still
crazy, right?
Yet
so many Christians treat Communion—the “memorial service” for Jesus Christ—in
just these ways.
Some
are like the family in that first scene. Communion is a spiritual ritual, a
disciplinary tradition complete with the recitation of the original Biblical
account. The congregation goes through the motions, passing the plate and
taking their specially-designed “Communion cups” of watered-down grape juice
and the small corner of kosher matzo, and waiting for the Pastor to give the
“okay” before you drink or eat… but that’s all it is; a synchronized ritual.
Others
try to pack the “ritual” with significance, and so treat Communion time as
“confession” time, listing out every sin they’ve ever done. They rehearse the
crucifixion scene in their minds, desperately trying to convince themselves
that they did the act of nailing Jesus to the Cross, that the broken bread and
the blood-red juice are more like evidence at a trial than tokens of
remembrance. The Last Supper is a somber affair, very much like a “last rites”
as opposed to a party feast. They feel that this is the right way to take
Communion, because Communion represents a very serious time in Jesus’ life.
I
am not saying that either of these are “bad” or “sinful”, per se—but perhaps
they are both a bit unbalanced, slightly skewed off-kilter. I do not pretend to
offer the “right” way of taking Communion based on years of research and study
and a thorough exegesis. What I intend to offer, if you’ve never thought about
it before, is some context and a bit of perspective, Amen?
First,
let’s place the First Communion in it’s context. What exactly was the Last
Supper? It certainly was not like the “last supper” of today, served to
criminals on death row, where they are going to die soon, but at least they can
die marginally happy with a belly full of whatever food they want.
For those who don’t know, that
night every Jew in Jerusalem (including Jesus Himself) was observing the
Passover Seder. For those who remember somewhere in the Gospel of Matthew
something about the Passover before the Crucifixion account, but are not sure
where the whole “supper” thing comes in, there is in fact a meal that takes place in the midst of the
symbolism and the ritual and the recitations and the guzzling goblets of grape
juice. It’s not something Christians decided to stick in there to “redeem” the
tradition from Judaism just because Jesus happened to be having a regular meal
with His disciples while everyone else in the city followed a prescribed reenactment.
In the Seder (which Jesus and His
disciples observed), there are traditionally four cups of wine (or juice)
poured at specific times. Two cups come before the meal. Immediately following
the meal is the traditional breaking and eating of the afikommen, a specially-named “loaf” of unleavened bread,
followed directly by the Third Cup. Incidentally, the Cups all have names and
special significance, too: The Cup of Sanctification, The Cup of Deliverance,
The Cup of Redemption, and the Cup of Praise.
With
that in mind, let’s look back at the account of the Last Supper, according to
Mark 14:22-24:
“And
as they were eating…”—This is the
traditional Seder meal, remember?
“He took bread, and when he had
blessed, he brake it, and gave to them, and said, Take ye: this is my body.”—This is the afikommen, still within the Seder tradition.
“And he took the cup…”—What Cup? The Cup of Redemption.
“…and when he had given thanks,
he gave to them: and they all drank of it.”—
Still the traditional
Jewish Seder happening.
“And he said unto them, This is my
blood of the covenant, which is
poured out for many.”
........OH!!
The light goes on. Jesus had
already poured out the Cups of Sanctification and Deliverance, remember? Why
did He wait until the Third Cup? A cup of drink is a cup of drink, is it not?
As it says in the Seder, “on other
nights”, a cup of juice is certainly a cup of juice, a means of refreshment and
hydration. But you see, during the Seder, the cup of juice or wine is more than
“just a cup.” They have names with special significance attached. So you see.
Jesus had very good reasons for waiting until after the meal—waiting till that
Third Cup, the Cup of Redemption—to try once more to get His disciples to
understand what was about to happen. Because in His Blood, we have Redemption;
not just Sanctification, nor simply Deliverance—we have Redemption.
Now do you understand? Communion is
not just a reenactment or a ritual. It’s a realization. When you drink the
juice at Communion, you are partaking in that Cup of Redemption, acknowledging
that Jesus brings Redemption by His Blood, which He shed for that very purpose
on the Cross.
So if Communion is more than a
ritual, does that mean that considering it a time of arduous confession is
right? Not entirely; confession is valid and worthwhile, and should happen
during Communion, if it never happens anywhere else, lest we “eat and drink
unworthily,” as Paul writes in 1 Corinthians—but permit me to contend that it
ought not be our whole focus during that time!
Let us consider again that First
Communion: did Judas Iscariot feel any remorse or feel the need to confess all
of the sin in his heart? No; but look at the consequence he suffered because he
ate and drank, and then betrayed the One he had Communed with.
Did the disciples use that time to
confess all their sins? The Bible doesn’t say so; yet they were Communing in
their hearts with Jesus, and so were not “unworthy” of the Lord’s Table. They
did not “eat and drink damnation”; they ate and drank Redemption. Was it a sober
moment? Was any man there considering the cross and the devastation? No; in
fact, they had no idea that Jesus was about to die. After all, it was only the
Passover.
So what is Communion if not confession time? Confess, yes, but
be mindful of why you are
confessing! It’s not just to kill time, and it’s not to make you cry or because
you feel awkward about sitting and waiting while everyone else is praying. The
opportunity to confess is if the Holy Spirit brings to mind something that is disrupting
the unity between yourself and God, or
yourself and another believer. Communion is not about sin, it’s about Redemption. It’s not about killing Christ over again; it’s about
the fact that He now lives, and
the same Power that gave Him life has
also redeemed us to live as well.
Here I will offer a third view of
Communion that takes the two views I expressed in the beginning and combines
their valid points with the perspective and the context I have just described.
Communion is an act that I participate in that involves confessing
my sin to God or the one I have sinned
against as a demonstration of my COMMitment
to the UNION between myself and God,
and the unity between myself and fellow Christians.
Very often a wedding ceremony will
include the couple’s first Communion together. Why? Is it because of tradition,
like walking down the aisle or exchanging vows? No. Is it necessary for the
couple to confess their sins to one another right there in the middle of the
ceremony? No.
In taking that communion, the
couple is demonstrating their commitment to each other and to God in a much deeper way than repeating their vows.
Jesus demonstrated his commitment
to the restoration of the unity that sin had disrupted when He established
Communion with His disciples. When we take Communion at church, we are
affirming that same pledge for unification, demonstrating that same commitment
that nothing should come between us as believers, or between God and ourselves.
More than a pious custom; more than
personal confession; Communion is a public, corporate COMMitment to UNION.
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