Nighttime,
in his bed, was no better. It seemed as though, goaded with the knowledge that
Ted and Marlo could see his entire past, every little thing he did, even the
secret things, his mind was intent on digging up every single occurrence of
even the smallest amount of embarrassment Alex had ever experienced,
broadcasting them in full view of Marlo’s big green eyes. Alex almost didn’t
hear his alarm over the sound of Marlo’s inane giggling in his dreams…
His
alarm!
Alex
jerked upright before he was fully awake. His body was at an odd angle,
mid-toss, so he promptly fell out of bed in a tangle of sheets. Sometime during
the night, he’d ripped his t-shirt off. His body was drenched in sweat. It
would be a cold shower this morning, for sure! He checked his clock: 7:52. His
alarm was long since over, and there was no way he could even hope to get to
work on time. Alex yanked the sheet of and tripped and stumbled his way into
the bathroom.
The
shower felt good; he was more awake when he stepped out and wrapped himself in
a towel. He grabbed his toothbrush and wiped the condensation from the mirror
to begin brushing his teeth.
“Mornin’,
sunshine!”
“GAAAHHH—“ Alex’s shrill scream at seeing Marlo’s face staring
back at him from the mirror was cut short by his left knee connecting with the
bowl of the sink at the same time he involuntarily jabbed the back of his
throat with his toothbrush. He collapsed on the floor in a towel-swathed heap
between the sink and the toilet.
“It’s
not like we didn’t tell you we’d show up at eight,” Ted shrugged as he casually
stepped—fully clothed and completely dry—out of Alex’s shower.
Alex
flinched again, this time narrowly missing smacking his face against the toilet
base.
“Ge-get
out!” he gasped, waving his arm weakly.
Ted immediately disappeared. By the time Alex struggled to his feet, Marlo was
gone, too. Warily, he peeked out of the bathroom door to check if they were in
the bedroom. The coast seemed clear. He heard dishes clanking in the kitchen.
So that’s where they were. Alex
basked in the privacy of his room, noting that it was now 8:00, and since he
hadn’t even left his apartment yet, he was now officially late for work. Who
cared? Would anybody listen if he tried to blame it on a couple ghosts freaking
the living daylights out of him?
A
far-more-composed Alex Davis met his two “ghost-parents” in the kitchen minutes
later.
“Don’t
ever show up in my bathroom again!” he
growled savagely as he ate the breakfast Marlo set on the table.
Marlo
scoffed, “Do you think I wanted to land
in your bathroom mirror and see you like that?” she demanded. “You best be glad
that—“
“Marlo!”
Ted reached across the table and silenced his wife with a gentle squeeze of her
hand. He looked at Alex, “We’ll do our best, but honestly, Alex, we don’t
control where we show up; you do. Our first appearance will always be near you,
so if you don’t want another situation like this morning—“
“Make
sure you’re dressed and decent by eight o’clock!” Marlo finished.
“Yeah,
speaking of eight o’clock,” Alex glanced at the clock hanging next to the
microwave in the kitchen, “I—“ he froze. The hands clearly pointed to 7:45. Why
had the clock in his bedroom said 8:00, then?
Marlo
grinned at him and clasped her hands under her chin. “You’re what?” she
prompted him significantly.
Alex
peered suspiciously at the pair. “Or maybe you two…”
“We’re
outside the realms of time and space, Alex,” Marlo reminded him with chilling
calm, “With us, you’re outside the realm
of time and space.”
Alex
stared at her, blinking hard, trying to make sense of the situation. “You’re
making it whatever time you want it to be?”
“Not
quite,” Ted shook his head. “We’re not going to make it that arbitrary. We both
agreed that at any time you needed it—such as this morning—we would make it
whatever time you needed it to be. Right
now, you need it to be 7:45.”
Alex
shook his head in disbelief, “Won’t that mess with the whole world, man?”
“Right
now, our priority is you, Alex Davis,” Ted replied. “Now it’s 7:50. I suggest
you start walking if you want to get to work on time.”
“I’ve
never been on—“ Alex stopped protesting as the two ghosts lifted him out of his
chair and compelled him to walk toward the door. They didn’t set him down until
he was just outside the door of the station.
“Let’s
do it!” Marlo cheered as Alex walked inside.
Marnie
scanned the names as they showed up on her computer screen whenever the
officers clocked in; she murmured a greeting as the names showed up.
“Hi,
Brian… Morning, Sylvia…Hi, Darren…Hi Al—“ she stopped, actually taking her eyes
off the screen for once. “Alex Davis?” she
gasped.
Alex
froze guiltily, keycard in hand. “H-hi, um…Marnie,” he stammered.
She
stared back at her screen. “I think this is the first time all year you’ve clocked in—“ she turned her monitor so Alex
could see, “—right on time!”
Alex
looked at the time next to his key-code: 8:00:00:00. He glanced at where Ted
and Marlo waited for him inside the station. They flashed him a thumbs-up.
“Well,
um,” he responded weakly, “W-would—would ya look at that!” he dashed through
the doorway before Marnie could utter another syllable.
Alex
checked the schedule on the wall; he wasn’t on beat till 9:30. That gave him
plenty of time to look over and fill out the modest stack of paperwork on his
desk. He sat down and commenced working.
“Davis!”
Captain Prosser’s gravelly voice boomed out across the office. Alex snapped
involuntarily to attention, sending his chair skidding out from under him.
“Sir!”
“Good
to see you on time… for once!” Prosser
raised his mug of coffee in salute and returned to his office.
Alex’s
knees buckled as he prepared to sink into his chair, but Marlo caught his
elbow. “Whoa, easy there!” She held him up till Ted brought the chair back over
for him.
Alex
grabbed the chair as soon as it was close, and sat down, collecting his wits
for a moment.
“Are
you okay?” Marlo asked him.
Alex
wagged his head, “I’ve just—I’m not used to being called out for a compliment
by my captain like that.”
“How
did it feel?” Ted asked with a chuckle.
Alex
didn’t answer. He only shook his head and grabbed a pen.
Not long after he began forging
through the small pile (one benefit of choosing only few cases, and only the
ones he would enjoy? Less paperwork, and what he had brought up pleasurable
memories), Marlo sidled up next to him.
"Whatcha doing?" she
asked.
Alex was self-aware enough to know
that at any time, there was a good chance there was at least one pair of eyes
on him at every moment. He kept his voice low as he muttered, "Filling out
paperwork."
"What kind of paperwork?"
Marlo shuffled through the stack of papers, but when Alex went to re-straighten
it, he found them exactly how he left them.
"Reports from the week's
beats," he answered.
Marlo began searching through the
drawers of his desk. "What's in here—"
"Would you stop that?"
Alex hissed. "Do you even have any idea what that looks like?"
Marlo winked at him, "Hello,
outside space and time, here!" she returned to her nosing, "Nobody
can see anything. Ooh, what's this?" she pulled out a small envelope from
the back of the drawer.
Alex glanced at her in alarm,
knowing that things would only become obvious if he actually interacted with
her. "Would you put that away!" he begged.
Marlo frowned at him just like his
mom used to do. "Young man—" she began.
"Look, I'll explain that when
we're alone, out on patrol," Alex proposed. "Now will you please just
let me finish my reports?"
Marlo nodded and joined Ted in
wandering around the station, peeking over shoulders and peering into cabinets,
and passing comments about the other cops, all within earshot of Alex.
Suddenly, Alex heard Marlo cry out,
"Ted! It's our file!"
Alex glanced up as husband and wife
surveyed the report from the night that ended their mortal lives.
"Who was the officer in
charge?" he wondered under his breath.
"Lieutenant Morgan Haversham,
it says."
Alex flinched and bit back a cry as
Marlo appeared next to him with a file in her hands. Alex glanced into the file
and saw that as far as the robbery goes, a few items were listed, then a
reference to an insurance list. Alex wondered what was on that list.
He returned to finishing the forms,
ending with the report on following Miss Adelaide.
"Who is she?" Ted
appeared beside him, and Alex was suddenly aware that his expression when he
thought about Adelaide gave him away.
"Um, well," Alex flushed
with shame, "she's just someone who...crossed my path on a beat a few days
ago."
"Do you like her?" Ted
asked.
Alex shrugged, "Well, I don't
know, we haven't really had the chance to talk yet."
"But you want to get to know
her?"
"Well," Alex snorted,
"yeah!"
Ted laughed, "Good luck with
that one!" he cried.
Alex eyed him warily, "You
wouldn't—I mean, you guys wouldn't, you know, mind if I stopped to talk with
her, would you?"
Ted shrugged, "In the
off-chance you had a small opportunity and she was there and not doing
anything?"
Alex nodded, "Yeah."
"No, Marlo and I would not
interrupt. Just as long as no calls come in while you're—chatting."
Alex bobbed his head, setting aside
the last case file and turning away from his desk. He gave the Brendons a look
that asked, "Are you ready to go?"
They nodded, and Alex stood just as
Captain Prosser emerged.
"Davis!" he barked.
Alex immediately approached his
captain, ready to head past the office and out to the garage. "Yes
sir?"
Prosser looked toward the front of
the room and beckoned a young cadet with bright-red hair and an easy smile.
"This is Jones," Prosser
said, "He asked to shadow you today."
"Shadow... me?" Alex echoed, wondering how he was going to
have a chance to talk with the Brendons if he had another person in the car.
Prosser glared at Alex, mistaking
his tone for reluctance. "Yes; you'll take him out on your beat today.
He'll ride in the front seat...unless you decide to stick him in the
back." Captain Prosser said this last with such dangerous certainty that
Jones flinched in horror, but Alex had been around long enough to know not to
take the Captain seriously when he said things like that. He clapped Jones
reassuringly on the shoulder.
"Nah, I don't think I'll need
to do that! Let's go, Jones."
Jones bobbed his head and tried to
smile again.
Alex felt a little proud of his
capabilities as he took Jones over the procedures and "bells and
whistles" of his patrol car. Jones seemed to know quite a bit already, but
even with only seven years under his belt, Alex knew that mere knowledge did
not separate the "men from the boys," as it were. Jones seemed to
know a lot about Alex himself, as well.
"I'm really honored that
you're letting me do this," the young cadet gushed as they pulled out of
the station. "Captain Prosser said if I wanted to run with the big dogs
I'd have to get by you first. And another cop I talked to, Officer Van Derby,
said he considers you the most streetwise cop of all the juniors." Jones
hesitated before remarking, "He did say you don't generally take your
calls by-the-book, and that you tend to meet a lot of girls on your beat."
The young boy grinned and asked slyly, "So...are we going to meet some
girls today?"
Alex glowed at the praise from his
superiors, and he was about to answer in the affirmative, when he saw Ted and
Marlo frowning at him from the back seat, and Ted shook his head.
"We'll see," he conceded,
not quite willing to give up the idea but at the same time scared of what the
ghosts might do if he ticked them off. He already discovered their uncanny
ability to manipulate time; who knew if they would choose to force him to live
this one day over and over again, like so many movies he'd seen?
"Say, Jones," Alex
decided now would be a good time to change the subject, "do you have a first
name?"
Jones shook his head, “Yeah—it’s
Leroy.”
“Leroy Jones?” Alex tried the name and found it cumbersome.
“Really?”
Jones’ red eyebrows danced, “I
know, I don’t like it much, either. Most people call me Tom.”
Alex tried that one, “Tom Jo—“ he
stopped and flushed when he realized the joke.
From the back seat, Marlo giggled,
“Tom Jones? Heehee! I like this kid!”
she squealed.
Alex shook his head, “Well, okay,
Tom; let’s see what we have on the scanner.” He turned the knob, and the
dispatcher’s voice came through as monotonous as ever.
“Geez,” Tom remarked, “you have to
listen to that all day? No wonder you’re
always trying to find somewhere to hook up! Any chick would be more exciting
than her!”
“Hey, man,” Alex spoke up
defensively, “this is where I find the
chicks!” The words were out of his mouth before he could stop them. He glanced
back at the furious ghosts guiltily, and added, “…but hooking up is not why
we’re out here,” he saw Ted nod approvingly, but at Tom’s combination of
confusion and disappointment on his face, he finished, “—it’s a side benefit!”
“Ahem!” Marlo cleared her throat noisily, knowing that Alex
would be the only one to hear her. She wagged a warning finger at him, and he
tried to shrug at her without Tom noticing.
Tom sighed, “Okay, Mr. Cop-Man,” he
teased, “where do we go first?”
Alex paused to listen to the
dispatcher.
“Available units respond to a car
theft at Marley Avenue…Available units respond to medical emergency at
Northwood Drive…”
“Ooh!” Marlo spoke up, “there’s a
good one!”
“Northwood Drive?” Alex replied
aloud, “That’s—“
“—A residential area, isn’t it?”
Tom finished curiously. “I thought you normally do the high-profile stuff.”
Alex saw that this was the call Ted
and Marlo wanted him to take, so he didn’t have a choice. He tried to excuse
himself, “Yeah, but Northwood’s only a short ways down from us, and I like to
keep my beats close…”
“Whatever, dude,” Tom sighed, “I’m
just riding in the car.”
Alex reached for his mic. “I’ll
show you how to respond to the dispatcher,” he told Tom, clinching the “call”
button and replying, “Dispatch, this is 145, I’ll take Northwood.”
“Fourteen-five?” The dispatcher
sounded as incredulous as Tom had been. “Are you sure you want to? I think it’s
just an accident, a young kid, and the EMTs are already on their way. I could
get someone else—“
“I’ll get there before they do,
Dispatch,” Alex responded, flicking on his lights and steering down the road
that would take him out to Northwood Drive.
Alex arrived at the small
residential house in time to console the frightened siblings of the young girl,
who had tripped and broken her ankle, but none of the kids were old enough to
drive, and the parents weren’t answering their cell phones. Alex gave the
obligatory congratulations for proper use of 9-1-1, and stayed with them till
the ambulance arrived to take the girl (and her siblings) to the hospital.
When he returned to the car, Tom
was listening to the scanner again. “I think I found something for us to do at
the Mountainside Golf Resort!” he crowed.
“I have a better idea,” Ted
offered, “Try going down Martindale Avenue, and take a right at the donut
shop.”
“What’s there?” Alex asked before
he remembered that technically he was talking to two people.
Ted answered first, “Marlo’s over
there now; there’s a—“
“I think it sounds like a security
issue or something,” Tom answered while Ted was still speaking.
Alex huffed in annoyance; as much
as he wanted to look like he was listening to Tom, he figured he would get into
trouble if he didn’t at least head over to where Marlo was waiting, even though
it would be no trouble for her to just “jump” back into the car.
“Umm—“
“All units please respond to a car
theft on Martindale Avenue! Suspect heading east!”
Alex sighed with relief and gunned
the engine. “That’s us!” he told Tom. He roared off in the direction of
Martindale Avenue.
“Awesome!” Tom cried, “A chase!”
“Unit 145, is that you?” Alex heard
the transmission from another patrol unit at the end of the road.
“Roger, this is Unit 145,” Alex
replied.
“All right, son; stay put in case
he decides to bolt in your direction. If you see him, follow but do not engage,
I repeat, follow but do not engage!”
“Copy that, sir,” Alex replied,
wincing.
Tom scowled, “Aww, nuts!” he
grumbled. “So now what do we do?”
Alex heard the back door open and
he glanced back; Marlo climbed into the car and closed the door behind her—but
at the same time the door had never opened. She saw him watching her and
winked.
Alex shook his head, “Now, we wait
for further orders.”
Five minutes later, the call came
in: “All secondary units, suspect has been apprehended; thanks for your help!”
“That’s just wrong!” Tom snapped.
“Hey!” Alex tried to calm the young
cadet, “It happens from time to time; it’s okay. Let’s see what else is on the
scanner.” He turned the dial and the dispatcher’s voice came through the
speakers.
“…lar emergency on the shoulder of
Interstate 60, repeat, there appears to be a stalled vehicle on the shoulder of
Interstate 60, would the nearest patrol please respond?”
“Alex?” Ted asked, “Interstate 60’s
just down the way, isn’t it?”
Alex rolled his eyes and continued
listening. “All nearby units, I have possible shots fired in an alley on
Courthouse Way; repeat, shots fired, who’s listening to me?”
Alex lifted the mic to respond, and
Tom encouraged him, “Yeah! Armed suspect! Let’s do it!”
Alex hesitated. Courthouse Way was
across town; as much as he would rather chase down the shooter, Interstate 60
was closer. Before he could speak—
“Dispatch, this is Unit 561, I’m on
I-60 en route to motorist.”
“Dispatch, Patrol Car 148, I have
visual on the shooter.”
“Thanks boys…Unit 145, do you
copy?”
Alex winced; he’d missed both
calls, so what could she want now? “This is 145, I copy!”
“I have an officer requesting
backup in front of the Justice Building on Main Street. Would you mind lending
a hand?”
“Wilco, Dispatch; en route now.”
“Backup?” Tom asked as they drove
away, “What does that mean? What will we do?”
“Sometimes they tell you ahead of
time,” Alex admitted, “but if they don’t tell the dispatcher, there’s no way to
know till we get there.”
He navigated the city blocks till
he arrived at the imposing grey building on Main Street. He saw three other
cars parked next to the curb across the street from the front steps. It seemed
that numerous black sedans with tinted windows were always in front of that
courthouse. Alex pulled up behind one of the patrol cars and radioed the
driver.
“Unit 618, this is Unit 145,” he
identified himself and the number on the car in front of him, “Dispatch says
you requested backup?”
“Weeelll, Officer Davis!”
Lieutenant Bree’s familiar icy voice slithered over the radio. “I was afraid
you’d turn me down again, so I told Dispatch to keep it anonymous and spare you
the details. I’ll be out to tell you myself in a second.”
Alex hung up his radio and groaned.
Why did it have to be the lieutenant?
Bree was at his window in ten
minutes. She held a paper bag in her hand.
“Lunch?” she offered when Alex
rolled down the window. Alex accepted the bag.
“What’s all the commotion?” he
queried sarcastically, gesturing toward the empty street.
“Millionaire with a grievance,”
Bree informed him, “Just wanted local eyes for the to-and-fro, he’s got his own
set of bodyguards that went in with him.”
“How long is this going to take?”
Alex asked as Tom started pulling the burgers out of the bag.
Bree shrugged, evidently enjoying
the fact that Alex was committed to the thing he hated least: sitting and
waiting. “It’s the Justice Department, it could take hours.” She elongated the word just to watch him squirm. Her
icy blue eyes darted over to the redhead in the passenger seat. “You gonna
introduce me, or do I have to ask him myself?”
“Lieutenant, this is Cadet Leroy
Jones; he’s accompanying me on beat today.” Alex turned to Tom, “Jones, this is
Lieutenant Bree Munroe—running point on this operation.”
“Ha! You know it!” Bree crowed. “So, Al’s supposed to be showin’
you the ropes, huh, kid?” she winked at Tom. “Has he taken you out to his old stalking
grounds yet?”
“All right,” Alex began to roll up
his window, “Thanks for the lunch, Lieutenant. Radio if you need us to do
anything else.”
Bree shook her head and strode away
from the car.
“What did she mean, stalking?” Tom
asked, glancing nervously at Alex, “You’re not a stalker, are you?”
“No,” Marlo muttered to herself and
to Alex, “he just loves watching pretty girls!”
“She’s just teasing,” Alex
reassured Tom. “She’s one of the ones who doesn’t think the way I pick calls is
very cool.”
“I don’t know why,” Tom scoffed, “I
certainly haven’t seen you do anything that looks anywhere close to stalking,
and I haven’t seen any of these girls the other officers talk about—“
“Bogey on your four,” Alex
murmured, nodding out Tom’s window. Tom discreetly checked that direction. A
girl wearing chunky Prada sunglasses, a tea-length summer dress, and carrying a
Gucci purse strode up the sidewalk.
“Oh yes,” Tom gasped, and Alex admired the way her brown
hair curled around her face.
As the girl crossed over to
approach on Alex’s side of the car, he saw her heel slip a bit—and in that
slight, tipsy movement, realization hit him like a thunderclap: it was
Adelaide! Here was the chance he’d been waiting for! She was nearing his window
now. Alex rolled it down.
“Careful, ma’am,” he called to her,
“wouldn’t want a pretty thing like you to be a danger to yourself!”
Adelaide Donahue stopped and
turned, “Do I know you?” she demanded, walking over to his car.
“Maybe you don’t remember,” Alex
suggested smoothly, “you were pretty full-up the night we first met.”
“Wait a minute!” Marlo burst out,
“That’s the chick he followed the night we—“ she was too overcome to finish her
sentence.
Adelaide, meanwhile, smiled as she
remembered, “Hey! You’re the cop who followed me home after Sandie’s party!”
“That’s right, ma’am,” Alex answered,
“I did; you don’t mean to say you remember that night?”
Adelaide blushed, a slight
reddening in her tanned cheeks, “Well, no, that night’s pretty much a blur, but
I heard from the neighbors what y’all did for me,” she leaned closer to Alex,
“And I think it’s really sweet,” her voice dropped as she leaned in so close
Alex could almost taste her breath, “…and I was just hoping for the chance to
thank you…”
“Um, hello?” Tom was getting uncomfortable at being forced to
witness the scene.
Alex fumbled for the handle of his
door, wanting to continue this tryst outside the car so the cadet would not
feel so uncomfortable, but Marlo screamed out, “Don’t you dare touch that
handle, young man!”
Her voice was so shrill, Alex
jumped and banged his head on the rim of the window. “Ouch!” he cried.
Adelaide pulled back, visibly
disappointed. “Well, I have to go,” she said, still leaning her elbows on
Alex’s door. “Do you have a name, Officer?” She winked.
“Alex, Miss—Alex Davis.”
The petite heiress winked, “Call me
Addie, Alex.”
“All right—“
“No, seriously,” she reached into
her purse and pulled out a small piece of paper. Addie dropped it through the
window and into his lap, “Call me.”
She sauntered easily away.
Silence reigned in the car for ten
seconds, and then Tom could not resist a long chuckle.
“Oh-ho-ho-ho!” he laughed, with an
astounded grin on his face. “Is that how
you do it, man?”
Alex ignored the frowns of the
couple in the back seat and basked in the admiration of the rookie sitting next
to him. “That’s sorta how I do it,” he answered, “yeah.”
“Dude!” Tom cried, “I feel like I
should be taking notes or something!”
Once they received the “okay” to
leave the Courthouse steps, Alex immediately requested permission to drive
around the higher-end side of town, just to avoid being close to the sort of
“small” jobs he’d spent all morning taking. It was easier, too, to avoid
looking in that rearview mirror and seeing the disapproval of the Brendons,
because the more they drove around the beachfront highways and the large outlet
malls and the gated neighborhoods, the more Tom gushed about “chicks” and
“lookers.” In particular, he would compare every girl he saw to Adelaide.
“Aw, look!” he cried out to Alex,
whose eyes followed a pair of easy, slender young blondes with bleach-white
smiles and flawless skin. One of them was walking a pint-sized terrier. “That
one is wearing the same dress Adelaide had on!”
Alex glanced over to where Tom
pointed, “Yeah, but it looks different on her, doesn’t it?” he remarked to the
young cadet.
“True that!” Tom agreed.
Alex spent the rest of the day
being choosy and basking in the raving adulation from the passenger seat. Tom
was in high spirits by the time they pulled back into the garage at the
station.
“Man! That was the most awesome
beat I think a cop could ever have!” He told Alex as the young officer filled
out the driving log for that day. “Thanks, Officer Davis; when I get to be a
cop, I can’t wait to get a beat just like yours!”
Alex shook his head, “You’ve gotta
put in the work first, man!” he reminded Tom loftily.
“Oh, right,” the redheaded cadet
conceded, “Play comes later, right?”
Alex laughed, and Tom returned to
the station.
“When you mentioned that you saw
her the other day,” Ted remarked, “I
should have known you meant that night.”
Alex turned to face the ghosts,
“Why so worried?” he demanded hotly.
“Alex,” Marlo gazed at him with
pity, “Obviously she’s an alcoholic, she’s spoiled-rotten, she thinks you’re a
tool, and she—“
“Hey!” Alex snapped, “You know
what? You guys have lived your lives already; I would appreciate it if you would let me at least live my personal
life how I want, if you’re gonna claim
custody of my professional life!”
“Alex,” Ted cautioned him, “Don’t
you see that the choices you’re making in your personal life are affecting your
professional life, too? You think you can just float through relationships and
be choosy—and you’re trying to be choosy about your job, too?”
“Yeah, I am!” Alex retorted. “Maybe
you never had the chance to get it, but that philosophy just happens to work
for me, so I don’t intend to give it up any time soon, thank you very much!” He
crossed his arms. “Now if you’ll excuse me, I believe I’m off–duty now, so I’ll be seeing you!” He stormed out of the
garage.
“Yeah, you bet you will!” Marlo hollered after him.
I like reading your book Leslie. I don't remember if the city was mentioned, but it must be a pretty big one.
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